its been almost a month, Me and Vera joined on the Graha Family club House
I was trying to gaining my weight. I was shocked, my weight was increasing bout 5 kilos
since december or january :(
i was depressed, but in the same time i feel so lazy to work out,
it was so hard to work out in the morning, not just me but vera did too..
we both so difficult to wake up in the morning
but sometimes, it succeed la, we woke up in 6 am and got to club house at 6.30
did some yoga or just treadmilling.
and the result after bout 3 weeks..
vera had decreased some kilos, as you know she's already getting slimmer since bout 2 months ago..
and undoubtly,my weight also decreased, yes it did, but just 1 kilo :( and bad news today, my weight is back just like it was :(
OMG still far to go back to forty sumthing...

slowly i realized that, the problem sumtimes not just the work out which didn't very regularly
but the appetite was too good and its uncontrollable..
lately, i love to eat so much...
i love food more than few months ago, like august, september or few months before that...
you know this isn't me...

now, when i ate or just saw the food, its just like i could release something, i don't know what that is.
its like take over something or like runaway from something...
uhm you know this is bad and its abnormal...

I tell you something real about love food.
that There's must be something wrong inside about people who eat so much, or getting fat,
yes it s like Oprah's said...
Vera also said that, she admit that few months ago, when she's getting so fat,and love eating so much,
she admit that when she saw food, thats just like "slurpp.."
and an eating process is like a pleasure, and satifying something which unexplainable...
yeah i feel that too...


hix..i've been trying so hard
you know what, since few days ago, every morning i had regular menu on breakfast, a bowl of quacker oat and a glass of coffee n cream...yeah, recharging for a day..
wish me luck fellas...
gaining the weight and gaining the appetite!!!